He doesn’t respect your feelings?
You’re not receiving the attention that you feel that you deserve from him?
You tell all of your girlfriends… “Nothing’s changed since #TheLastTime we talked. Everything seemed fine. We were just ok…?”
Remember telling him that same excuse #TheLastTime ? He’s just my “brother” we just hang out… How many suckers do you think are born per minute?
#TheLastTime he came over. He didn’t miss the fact that you too…(like you complain about him doing) take your phone everywhere. Even to the bathroom. It’s constantly upside down. Never visible when the other guys call because that’s the reason it’s upside down. You don’t want him to see who’s calling. He didn’t say anything #TheLastTime so you do it in his face. Repeatedly. As if his silence translates to stupidity.
Too dumb to see that it’s love. Too shallow to notice deep trust when you see it. Maybe #TheLastTime him not saying anything. Really was him saying too much.
You can hide your phone. You can’t hide what hiding it means. You can lie to yourself a million times but you can’t hide what lying about it really means. You see.
#TheLastTime was really #TheLastTime. #TheLastTime for you showing him how not to be loved feels. #TheLastTime that his silence hides how he feels. When the phone conversations become distant. Remember #TheLastTime that you had him close and how FAR the culmination of #TheLastTimes pushed him away.
Tell your friends the truth! About #TheLastTime you cheated. How his silence made you think that he never heard of, or even knew of it. How you said #TheLastTime was #TheLastTime right before you did it again…. #TheLastTime
When you’re calling him names in the heat of the battle initiated by the silent memories of #TheLastTimes. “Bitch nigga, broke nigga, and etc. Just remember that he was none of this. So long as he paid your bills #TheLastTime.
#TheLastTime you told him a lie instead of the truth. He had already lost faith in you from #TheLastTimes. He’s a man. So you won’t catch him “in his feelings”, he won’t cry on Oprah’s shoulder…
He’ll simply get wise, be strong, get up, and leave for #TheLastTime.
(Written sitting on a log, dreaming of a bird, while looking at one!)
See J Slim
Seven FiveMillionWorks Publishing